Tuesday, January 16, 2007

Thankful for pain

Well, it's Tuesday again, so I am trying to do a THANKFUL TUESDAY. I have been thinking of what I am normally not thankful for, like what have I not thought of as a blessing, and I thought of it. FIBROMYALGIA. If you didn't know, I have a condition and it is called Fibromyalgia. It is pretty complicated, because there are so many different symptoms and side affects from it, but for the most part it is widespread, diffused pain. This is a constant in my life. I have come to live with a tolerance of pain, because if I couldn't live with it it would be debilitating. I was watching Everwood a few days ago and one of the characters had a disease that was hereditary and the daughter didn't want to get tested to see if she had it. She described it as a way to be closer to her father. Maybe it was the one thing they could bond over, if she had it, maybe she would be able to better console her father. This was a crazy way to think of it, but a new perspective for me. My mom has fibromyalgia too, they think it may be hereditary also. Thinking from that perspective, I should be thankful I have it. I know it is a pain (literally) every day, but at least when it gets bad, I can turn to my mom and when she is hurting, she can turn to me. It is hard to go through something daily and have no one around you understand it. I can't describe to you how it feels, it just hurts. I love being active, but sometimes it is just so draining because of the fibro and I just can't do it. To others I may look weak or lazy, but it is severe and not something I would wish on anyone else. Even though it sucks, I am thankful that I am able to be able to be there for my mom through it all.

If you are interested in learning more, the internet is a great resource (just google "fibromyalgia" and tons of sites will come up).

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