Thursday, December 28, 2006

I'm okay


"I'm Not Okay (I Promise)"

Well if you wanted honesty, that's all you had to say. I never want to let you down or have you go, it's better off this way. For all the dirty looks, the photographs your boyfriend took, Remember when you broke your foot from jumping out the second floor? I'm not okay I'm not okay I'm not okay You wear me out What will it take to show you that it's not the life it seems? (I'm not okay) I've told you time and time again you sing the words but don't know what it means (I'm not okay) To be a joke and look, another line without a hook I held you close as we both shook for the last time take a good hard look! I'm not okay I'm not okay I'm not okay You wear me out Forget about the dirty looks The photographs your boyfriend took You said you read me like a book, but the pages all are torn and frayed I'm okay I'm okay! I'm okay, now(I'm okay, now) But you really need to listen to me Because I'm telling you the truth I mean this, I'm okay! (Trust Me)I 'm not okay I'm not okay Well, I'm not okay I'm not o-fucking-kay I'm not okay I'm not okay (Okay)

I decided today that no matter what happens, I want to be okay. I want to be able to stand on my own two feet and rely on no one other than God (and of course my family). Whatever may happen, although it may shake me, it will not crush me. I need to be strong and I need to be okay. I must be able to take what life throws at me, and I must be okay. I am someone special, and I need to realize that and I need those around me to realize that. I am someone and I can do what I put my mind to - look at how far I've come thus far. I am okay and I will be okay.

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