Bored

No, this blog isn't about me at work, it is a blog about my life. I am bored with the way my life is. I don't seem to have much going on AT ALL right now. I wake up @ 6:30, get ready for work, watch the morning news, leave by about 7:30, get in to the office by about 7:45 and sit at my desk doing a little bit of everything until 5, sometimes I will go out for lunch and walk around Target or the Dollar Store for 20 minutes or so, then go home, eat dinner, watch TV for a couple hours and go to bed by 9. I even eat the same thing every day. At least lately I have been able to watch the Detroit sports to switch it up a little, but even that, I mean come on. I just have this routine that I can't seem to get out of. A rut. People ask what I'm doing that day and I just want to scream THE SAME THING I DO EVERY DAY - NOTHING. I know, the weekends I might go and try out different adventures, but I don't want to look forward to sleeping at 8pm every night during the week. GRRRRRR. I just feel like I have no friends, no life, no nothing out here. Ryan lives 40 minutes north and I only get to see him on the weekends. I hate using the phone and even if I didn't I don't know who I would call anyway. I am just stuck in the rut and I don't know how to get out of it. I don't know what I'm looking for. I don't know what it would look like to not be in this rut, I don't know, so please don't ask. It seems like once a week I am pondering moving back to Michigan - don't get me wrong, I love the weather out here, but I just feel blah. Then I think, what would be different if I moved back to Michigan, instead of watching TV by myself I would watch it with my family? I just don't know right now. I'm just bored, and frustrated, and I just want to scream. Maybe this is it. I mean maybe people just don't talk about it, but that most people are bored for the majority of their life, I dunno. I just know that I want more. I want adventure, I want something more, but knowing me, I probably won't do anything about it and I only have myself to blame. I know I am a spoiled whiner. At least I have a TV to watch, at least I have some where to lay down and go to bed, right? I know that, but for some reason I am just not content with it. I would love to say it is because I have this longing for Heaven and this great motive behind it, but I think that it might just come down to I am a selfish whiner that can't see the good/ great in her life. GRRRRR. Sorry for the rambling and I'm sorry that you will never get those 2 minutes back that you used reading the rambling :).